Reflecting on 2020 seems like too much of a task for me tonight. I will share some of my visions for 2021.
I’d like to experience a lessening of generalized anxiety. This is still pretty bad for me. I’d like to be able to sit with myself, most of the time, and feel grounded and safe and stable. Right now I have racing thoughts and a racing heart all too often. I want this to be a more rare state for me, and not a general way of living.
I want to connect with other people. I have some ideas up my sleeve. I want to build genuine community and friendships. One thing I have in mind is a writers’ retreat on our property, and I know Joey has ideas of bringing people here as well. I’m very excited about this. I’m hoping to surround myself with people often, with space to retreat of course, because I am an introvert. But I want to feel connections in 2021, like I never have. This will include branching out to see what offerings are available in my new town. I’m interested in taking lessons in all kinds of creative things if possible.
I want to use writing as a tool for healing. I really want to focus on this above all other things. I don’t want to focus on whether it is clever enough for an imaginary audience, or worse, marketable. I want to really express myself and create beauty in the act. I want to explore other art forms too, like pottery, clay, guitar, songwriting. I want this to be the year I do things without judgement and pressure from myself.
This is specific, but I want to have a website that better showcases my art, and not only my writing. I might be able to do that with this site. I’d also like to figure out how to get rid of the ads on this site.
I want to use my body more in 2021 and be more in tune. I bought an elliptical for the cold months, and I want to keep up my mindful walks and yoga. I want to focus on releasing trauma that has been stored in my body for years and years. I want to be physically freer.
I hope in general it is a year of healing energy and inspiration. Happy New Year, reader.