Something I daydream about fairly often in a post-Covid world is my own cafe and shop. It would mostly be a place people could gather. Coffee might just be available by donation, and I would sell my art and other trinkets and whatnot. I would love setting u the place, indoors and out. I would pick out the perfect furniture, lighting, music, and rotation of art for the walls. There could be live performances and groups. I like thinking about this a lot.

I’m having a lovely morning. I did another ketamine treatment, which I find inclines me towards writing. Each time the feeling seems to linger a little longer. It’s really quite nice, because I felt for several years now that I had lost my taste for writing. It’s interesting. I’m more focused on the actual act of writing and typing. One is a craft. The other is a dance. A finger dance, lol.

I’ve had several cups of coffee but am not feeling jittery. Now I’m having black tea. I’ve been greatly enjoying tea lately. It snowed here, which has been lovely. It snowed yesterday and today. We are working on building a screened in porch for the winter using plastic wrap! It may or may not work. We shall see…

I’m really loving my bunnies lately. I was watching a documentary called The Octopus Teacher and it got me thinking a lot about human/animal relationships. I started being a little more firm with my rabbits a few months ago, because their coats were a mess and we weren’t getting anywhere with grooming. I’ve decided to go back to a gentler, perhaps more respectful interaction now that they are tolerating and even enjoying grooming.

I will sometimes hold them longer than they want, but let them go shortly after. And I let them decide when they want to leave their kennels. I don’t grab them in their sacred space….I just have patience.

This has made me feel much less anxious about the relationships. I now know that it is important to get an angora at a young age to accustom them to touch and grooming. Some of the ones I see in my angora group on facebook absolutely love the attention. They will lay on their backs to be brushed! Maybe we will get there someday. I want to start carding the wool soon and using it.

I’m finding working with animals greatly rewarding. The chickens and ducks are also a delight. It’s my morning and evening routine to let them in and out with Joey. We also, of course, and to make sure all their needs are met. Sometimes I don’t feel like doing it, but they always make me smile and laugh and it’s a good feeling to care for them. Hopefully we will get some eggs soon!

The cats are also well. Not much to say there. They enjoy the fireplace and the new couch. Pretty much just being their same old selves.

I wrote a poem while doing my treatment, and I’d like to share it.

Snow Falls On Cedars

Snow falls on cedars

Look how beautiful the world

Now covered in white.

Jazz in my ear drums

A window to the outside

A cup of coffee on the sill.

Friends are far away

Positive vibes, still honest.

Sharing our pictures

Sharing how we’ve been.

Quality in old photos

Memories of old times

Remembering us

Remembering how it was.

Snow falls on cedars

I wonder, where the time goes

My world is now gold.

My life is in nature

My life is on Life’s terms

Snow falls on cedars

& I must quiet the music

Before I forget this thought.:

You cannot feel bliss forever. That’s just not the way it works. Come to terms with your moody heart, small joys, and even sorrows. Learn the art of contentment, and you will finally be free.